Waiting...and other things that I suck at...

I'm in a musical. I doubt that there's a single person who might just read this that actually knows that. I'm not complaining, there's no reason you would know. I've not written about it up until now because...well I haven't, so deal with it. I've been at practice almost every single night for the past two weeks and thankfully it's coming together. Otherwise I'd be pissed right now. It really is going well, and it'll be a wonderful performance. Actually we only have about one more week before opening night. I'd invite you but...well the last time I checked no one who reads this lives anywhere near me. But that's what I've been doing with my time lately. Nothing major, still unemployed, still doing everything for nothing, still loving it for the most part, still wondering why in the world I want to be close to people I never get to see. I really do. It bothers me so much that I let someone so far a way bother me so much, and it bothers me even more that I try not to think about it. But you know, it's the way it's going to be and there's not really anything I can do about it right now. In all likelihood there will never be anything I can truly "do" about it. So...yeah...
It's nice to be told that your someone's favorite from time to time. One of the girls in the musical told me that as I was pulling out in my car at the end of practice. I'm pretty sure she was joking around with me, we'd been joking around earlier, but it's was still nice to hear the words. The musical is Titanic, by the way. Nothing to do with Leo and Kate. I remember when a touring company came and performed it at IWU, well I remember being annoyed that that the only decent song in the entire show was sung by the telegraph operator's to his telegraph machine. I was certainly not impressed, but now that I've heard the music and have spent time with the characters I love the show. It's great music, and I love my character, I'm Thomas Andrews designer and builder of Titanic. It'll be great wish you could come.